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Valerie's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (vking) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 22:18:50 GMT

Today sucked. I don't think I have ever had so many negative thoughts about myself in one day as I did today. I feel like I'm doomed to never be happy since I can't seem to handle things anyone can handle. However, tomorrow is a new day. I'm going to do my damndest to start new patterns that may help me and proove that I am stronger than this. I have also decided to start leaving prayers on this journal....maybe someday they will be answered.

Feeling like this will never end

feeds@yuku.com (jbannon) — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 08:32:01 GMT

Hi all. I'm new here. I just recently joined because I feel like I really need some support right now from others going through this. I have a seven week old beautiful baby boy. I also am pretty sure I have postpartum depression and anxiety. I've had anxiety disorder since 2005 but it's been under control for years. I've been on prozac since I was diagnosed and also xanax as needed, but I haven't needed it in ages. Now I'm taking it every day. I also have ulcerative...

One day....one hour...one minute at a time

feeds@yuku.com (rescuemom) — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 06:09:06 GMT

I sometimes feel like I'm completely wasting my life away. Every night I lie in bed and realize that I have gotten nothing accomplished. I have settled for accomplishing little things and rewarding myself for them such as two loads of laundry or sweeping the floor. The hardest part to me is the total roller coaster. I hate them in real life and I hate this emotional one. One day I'm great, getting many things accomplished and feeling awesome,...

Liz's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (lizmomoftwo) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 10:15:48 GMT
I woke up feeling like I needed support today. I knew it was going to be a rough one. So, I packed the two kids, snacks, lunch, dipes, wipes, etc......, in the car and drove an hour to a Mom's group I had not been to before. We got lost, got found, found the place, parked the car, hauled the kids et al out, and.......... No Group to be found. There was another Mom who had been there before looking, but it was all locked up.
Now in tears (mine) back in the car another hour home. I...

Britni's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (Bstars87) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:08:05 GMT
So this is new to me and I thought it would be a good thing to do to help with my abilitly to cope and what not. Ok so here we go!

Today has been a pretty good day for me. I got my shower when my mom came over for lunch and I did get the dishes washed while the little one was asleep. I wish I could nap though...it seems like she wants to be held all the time so I have to...

Sabrina's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (sabrinaaa101) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:14:12 GMT

I'm new to this and i'm not really sure how this works yet. I do have a journal i write in throughout the day. its actuall ben making me feel somewhat better. I have a son who just turned two months old today. About 2 weeks ago i started feeling different and not myself. I started getting anxiety attacks. i would cry because they scared me and i didnt know how to deal with them. I went to my doctor and she told me i had PPD. She put me on...

Another week.. entry 2

feeds@yuku.com (marisa23) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 09:37:58 GMT
Well I am feeling much better this week. I hate that when these somewhat periods I am starting to get come I am crazier than ever. I had a great weekend with my family and a much needed date night with my hubby. I wish it were easy to just take a vacation whenever we needed it so we can start to get back some of what we used to have. I know everyone says I will get better but it is hard to believe that sometimes when this has taken over our lives so much. I am hope full, but am ready to be...

I am so over this!

feeds@yuku.com (marisa23) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 16:51:41 GMT
Hi Everyone,
I was diagnosed with PPD in January of this year and this has just been hell all around. My symptoms started back in late AUgust early Sept..but nothing would have led me to believe that this is what was going on. After finally seeing a dr. Nov. 1st believeing I had a thyroid issue and going back.... my third visit I was a crazy, person asking my dr. to put me into a mental institution since I was sure I flat out was...

challenging moods

feeds@yuku.com (Titiana) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 12:37:49 GMT
ahh great! A place where I can vent!

Well, my daughter is 10 weeks old. I feel so blessed to have her. I wasn't supposed to have anymore kids. My older kids are 15 and 13. This newest bundle was an unexpected blessing. Then why do I feel so bad a lot of the times? Some moments I feel happy, and other moments I feel mad and sad and regretfull and all kinds of other feelings. Afterall I knew what it was like to have a baby.. I had two others. I don't think my moodiness has to...

The chat time will be changed tonight.

feeds@yuku.com (homegirlhayward ) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:08:46 GMT
Everyone, the chat will be changed tonight to 8:00pm PST, 9:00pm MST, 10:00pm CST, 11:00pm EST

I have to attend my daughter's Halloween concert tonight, but I'll be here for a late chat!

Cary's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (CaryO) — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:25:35 GMT
I've wanted to start this last week, but I lacked the guts to do it, but I think it might be good for me, especially after reading some of the other journals, I think it is a good place to get things out. There are a lot of strong women out there dealing with the same things I'm feeling and that gives me comfort and hope. I've been living so much in my head the last 7 months and am so tired of it. I started handwriting journals, but I misplace them, or can't find them when...

Kelly's Challenge

feeds@yuku.com (kellybobelly) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 04:55:30 GMT
After reading numerous journals I figured I would jump on the band wagon. My memory stinks and I tend to remember more of the negatives in my life rather than the positives. I'm hoping that starting this journal will remind me of how far I've come. Here's my timeline.
5/27/09- Sophie entered the world. My second daughter. She is beautiful and healthy!
3 weeks postpartum: I started getting...

My Journal

feeds@yuku.com (seligcrystal) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 00:11:51 GMT

Ok well here goes my second attempt on here to do a journal. This time I am really going to try and post here atleast 3 times a week. Hopefully more often but we'll see. I am starting this journal again because I have my first counceling session coming up on Monday Oct. 12th. And I have a feeling they will want me to start doing this any ways. So I thaught maybe I would get a head start even if...

Angela's journal

feeds@yuku.com (poco) — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 15:17:00 GMT
I figured I am done introducing myself so I should probably take all my blabbering elsewhere and this looks like the place.

We didn't wind up getting the room painted today so I switched appointments and went to the therapist today. She said it would be better to wean the baby and start taking anti-depressants but I really don't want to for several reasons. I promised to try taking the Zoloft again. This would be my 4th try but the other times were before my baby started...

Balancing Act

feeds@yuku.com (gcl) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:36:06 GMT
I'm having a hard time balancing everything. I was writing on here almost everyday during summer vacation. (I'm a teacher) Now that school started I'm having a hard time finding time to do this. This is my main support for PPD and when I don't get on here I start to feel all alone. My son goes to bed at 7, but there is so much to do after I put him down. When I do get some free time I usually spend time with my husband or try to relax. I feel like I am on a huge, never...

fairygirl's journal

feeds@yuku.com (fairygirl) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 09:59:24 GMT
Hello...I am new to this site and this is my first post...really glad I found this site, it helps knowing I'm not alone. I used to journal a lot and found it therapeutic, but since I've had my baby I've had very little time to do it; fortunately she's napping right now so I've got a little 'me' time.
She was born on the first of June so she'll be 3 months old in a few days. I'd had depression and anxiety problems before she was born, so I wasn't...

Crystal's Journal...

feeds@yuku.com (seligcrystal) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 20:30:22 GMT

So I am new to this site. I have 5 kids and that is complicating enough... My husband and I do foster care, so we have three foster children, two sisters that are 3 and 4 years old, a 19 month old little boy that we are in the process of adopting, and then we have our daughter who we share custody of with her birth mom (she was our foster...

Heidi's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (gcl) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:38:09 GMT

I haven't ever written in a journal but I think it will make me feel better. I always think that if I had someone to talk to that knows how I feel I would feel much better. Well I don't know anyone with postpartum depression and most people have no idea what it is like to go through this. I have been suffering for PPD for over a year. I didn't want to believe that I had PPD. I kept saying it was because of the lack of sleep. I looked up the symptoms many times, but I kept...

HT, Day 2

feeds@yuku.com (HT) — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 09:14:33 GMT

I am going to give you an update. I am waiting to see if there is a bed at ParkRidge. If so, I will be going ASAP. If not, they will look elsewhere. My pastor, Chris, and the therapist will talk further today or tomorrow. My social worker will talk to my mother today. I am arranging schedules for the children, babysitters, etc.

Guess that's it.

ht

HT Day 1

feeds@yuku.com (HT) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 12:58:50 GMT
Guess I'm starting over...today has been all over the place emotionally. It looks like they will begin the admission process to a unit in Fletcher, NC tomorrow. I've been there three times before, so at lest I know what to expect. The SW from the health department will be talking to my Mom about things, and the therapist will be talking with Christian to provide some education (within reason). Despite the wide rnage of emotions, particularly fear, I fid myself experiencing some peace...