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I am so over this!

feeds@yuku.com (marisa23) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 16:51:41 GMT

Hi Everyone,
I was diagnosed with PPD in January of this year and this has just been hell all around. My symptoms started back in late AUgust early Sept..but nothing would have led me to believe that this is what was going on. After finally seeing a dr. Nov. 1st believeing I had a thyroid issue and going back.... my third visit I was a crazy, person asking my dr. to put me into a mental institution since I was sure I flat out was...

challenging moods

feeds@yuku.com (Titiana) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 12:37:49 GMT

ahh great! A place where I can vent!

Well, my daughter is 10 weeks old. I feel so blessed to have her. I wasn't supposed to have anymore kids. My older kids are 15 and 13. This newest bundle was an unexpected blessing. Then why do I feel so bad a lot of the times? Some moments I feel happy, and other moments I feel mad and sad and regretfull and all kinds of other feelings. Afterall I knew what it was like to have a baby.. I had two others. I don't think my moodiness has to...

The chat time will be changed tonight.

feeds@yuku.com (homegirlhayward ) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:08:46 GMT

Everyone, the chat will be changed tonight to 8:00pm PST, 9:00pm MST, 10:00pm CST, 11:00pm EST

I have to attend my daughter's Halloween concert tonight, but I'll be here for a late chat!

Cary's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (CaryO) — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:25:35 GMT

I've wanted to start this last week, but I lacked the guts to do it, but I think it might be good for me, especially after reading some of the other journals, I think it is a good place to get things out. There are a lot of strong women out there dealing with the same things I'm feeling and that gives me comfort and hope. I've been living so much in my head the last 7 months and am so tired of it. I started handwriting journals, but I misplace them, or can't find them when...

Kelly's Challenge

feeds@yuku.com (kellybobelly) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 04:55:30 GMT

After reading numerous journals I figured I would jump on the band wagon. My memory stinks and I tend to remember more of the negatives in my life rather than the positives. I'm hoping that starting this journal will remind me of how far I've come. Here's my timeline.
5/27/09- Sophie entered the world. My second daughter. She is beautiful and healthy!
3 weeks postpartum: I started getting...

My Journal

feeds@yuku.com (seligcrystal) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 00:11:51 GMT

Ok well here goes my second attempt on here to do a journal. This time I am really going to try and post here atleast 3 times a week. Hopefully more often but we'll see. I am starting this journal again because I have my first counceling session coming up on Monday Oct. 12th. And I have a feeling they will want me to start doing this any ways. So I thaught maybe I would get a head start even if...

Angela's journal

feeds@yuku.com (poco) — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 15:17:00 GMT
I figured I am done introducing myself so I should probably take all my blabbering elsewhere and this looks like the place.

We didn't wind up getting the room painted today so I switched appointments and went to the therapist today. She said it would be better to wean the baby and start taking anti-depressants but I really don't want to for several reasons. I promised to try taking the Zoloft again. This would be my 4th try but the other times were before my baby started...

Balancing Act

feeds@yuku.com (gcl) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:36:06 GMT
I'm having a hard time balancing everything. I was writing on here almost everyday during summer vacation. (I'm a teacher) Now that school started I'm having a hard time finding time to do this. This is my main support for PPD and when I don't get on here I start to feel all alone. My son goes to bed at 7, but there is so much to do after I put him down. When I do get some free time I usually spend time with my husband or try to relax. I feel like I am on a huge, never...

fairygirl's journal

feeds@yuku.com (fairygirl) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 09:59:24 GMT
Hello...I am new to this site and this is my first post...really glad I found this site, it helps knowing I'm not alone. I used to journal a lot and found it therapeutic, but since I've had my baby I've had very little time to do it; fortunately she's napping right now so I've got a little 'me' time.
She was born on the first of June so she'll be 3 months old in a few days. I'd had depression and anxiety problems before she was born, so I wasn't...

Crystal's Journal...

feeds@yuku.com (seligcrystal) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 20:30:22 GMT

So I am new to this site. I have 5 kids and that is complicating enough... My husband and I do foster care, so we have three foster children, two sisters that are 3 and 4 years old, a 19 month old little boy that we are in the process of adopting, and then we have our daughter who we share custody of with her birth mom (she was our foster...

Heidi's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (gcl) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:38:09 GMT

I haven't ever written in a journal but I think it will make me feel better. I always think that if I had someone to talk to that knows how I feel I would feel much better. Well I don't know anyone with postpartum depression and most people have no idea what it is like to go through this. I have been suffering for PPD for over a year. I didn't want to believe that I had PPD. I kept saying it was because of the lack of sleep. I looked up the symptoms many times, but I kept...

HT, Day 2

feeds@yuku.com (HT) — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 09:14:33 GMT

I am going to give you an update. I am waiting to see if there is a bed at ParkRidge. If so, I will be going ASAP. If not, they will look elsewhere. My pastor, Chris, and the therapist will talk further today or tomorrow. My social worker will talk to my mother today. I am arranging schedules for the children, babysitters, etc.

Guess that's it.

ht

HT Day 1

feeds@yuku.com (HT) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 12:58:50 GMT
Guess I'm starting over...today has been all over the place emotionally. It looks like they will begin the admission process to a unit in Fletcher, NC tomorrow. I've been there three times before, so at lest I know what to expect. The SW from the health department will be talking to my Mom about things, and the therapist will be talking with Christian to provide some education (within reason). Despite the wide rnage of emotions, particularly fear, I fid myself experiencing some peace...

stressed

feeds@yuku.com (pippin) — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 23:08:11 GMT
My husbands and I finances has become unstable, and have unfortunalty forced to pack up and move to my mothers house. It has been pretty tough. I feel like I am doing all I can around the house, but they don't seem to appreciate what I am doing. I feel like I'm 18 again. It is uncomfortable and tense. By uncomfortable I mean everything has to be orderly and percise. I really try hard to make my mother happy. But it just doesnt seem to work. Tonight, I got chewed out because I...

Here goes..

feeds@yuku.com (Cesquin) — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 12:36:14 GMT
I've never been good at journaling.. I make some excuse not to, I feel self-conscious writing about my own life, etcetera.. but I am going to try this and see how it goes.

My last post was about planning for a second postpartum, as I am trying to conceive, and about my best friend's divorce and the stress it is causing me. Many advised me to tell my friend that I could not talk about her divorce. To me that feels like being a bad friend, but unfortunately I think the...

Sarah's Journal (prv356)

feeds@yuku.com (prv356) — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 02:42:58 GMT
Maybe a journal might help...I don't know, but I figured I would give it a try. It's 6:30 am on Monday morning. It will be roughly three month this Wed. with PPD. I have to say this is the worst experience I have ever been through, and that includes the death of my father. I think that way because I don't know when it will end and I am tired of being out of control. I see posts on here of people that have been going 7 months and longer. My only hope is that they didn't...

Tracy's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (strugglingtorecover) — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 22:04:23 GMT
Hi everybody, It has been a long time since I posted anything.....I guess because I felt like I was doing well. Now I feel like I am struggling again and I am not sure why. A little background about me, my son was born in January, he was 2 months early. I had a tough pregnancy, threw up for 6 months, had kidney stones twice, had bedrest for 2 weeks. My son was in the hospital for 1 month before he came home, he is doing amazing and is now 6 months old with no delays at all. My PPD seemed to...

Sarah's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (sarahsweet) — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 17:58:11 GMT
I have read in a lot of my Depression books that journaling is so very important. But I have always been one to read the book, read the activities, and not actually do the activities. I always tell myself I will come back to them. I never do. Hmmm..maybe that's why I'm still depressed. Anyway...I am going to do something different and journal. I saw this thread and since I really like this site, what better place to do it? Who knows..maybe I will catch a pattern so I can figure...

Tiffany's Emotional Randomness

feeds@yuku.com (allismom) — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:24:51 GMT
Today, I start this to maybe get a clearer perspective of who I am and where I am headed.

I noticed this morning, when I woke up, I was already clenching my teeth together. This newest habit has been going on for about 2 weeks now. It started out to keep myself from saying/doing something that I KNEW was the PPD, but now I do it almost ALL the time. I was trying to use my OB as a PCP, but I think I am going to go back to my pre-prego PCP, since we have a long history together,...

Frenchie's journal...

feeds@yuku.com (frenchie2) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 16:39:51 GMT
So I've decided to start a journal , maybe just to get things out or maybe to track my progress. Either way I feel compelled to do so for some reason.
Today has been hard , I can't really put my finger on it. but there's just little htings here and there. My DH told me he missed having fun with me, my laugh and my smile have been missing. I want so badly to be that laughing smiling girl again, I miss her too.
There's days when I know why I'm sad , then...